Wednesday, February 4, 2015

"Getting to know you": What to expect when called in by the stake

The following is an interview between my wife and I and our seven children in the stake high council room. The premise of the meeting was to "get to know you". After some preliminary small talk it went something like this:

Pres. Barker: Well, that’s great. That’s wonderful. Well, Jon and Kari, Brother and Sister Durfee, we’re happy to do this as a family, or however you’d like to do this. We wanted to go over a few church things…
 
Jon: Sure.
 
Pres. Barker: With your parents.
 
Jon: They’re privy to pretty much everything. So, there shouldn’t be any suprises.
 
Pres. Barker: Okay, alright. Well, that sounds great. Well, talk to us! A little bit about your faith, and talk to us about Joseph Smith, and then talk to us about President Monson. Just give us some thoughts.
 
Jon: Well. Do you want me to talk?
 
Kari: Sure!
 
Jon: Or do you want to go?
 
Kari: Go ahead.
 
Jon: Well, we believe in Joseph Smith. He is the Lord’s mouthpiece, for sure. The Lord spoke to him, the Lord appeared to him. D&C 128 says that the church is true because the voice of God, and the voice of Michael, and the voice of Raphael, and the voice of Gabriel had been heard from the beginning of the church until that time. So, you know, he spoke with these beings. He spoke with Adam and with Enoch, and Gabriel, who was Noah, as you guys know. So he was singular, you know? He had a direct connection to heaven; the heavens were opened to him. I believe that and I know it. And I don’t mean by knowing, that I just really, really believe it cause it sounds like a good story. It’s because I’ve had the same vision. The heavens have opened to me, and though I might be persecuted for saying so, I have had a vision and I have seen the Lord. That’s my testimony. I know the Lord lives because I’ve seen Him. I know Joseph Smith is a prophet because he’s spoken to me. President Monson?
 
Pres. Barker: Yeah!
 
Jon:  President Monson’s great. I love him. He’s a great man. I think that he’s the President of the Church and I think he’s doing a bang-up job, he’s doing a great job.
 
Pres. Barker: Let me ask you a question. Have you got your scriptures there?
 
Jon: Sure!
 
Pres. Barker: Would you turn to D&C Section 107:32-3. Actually, let’s just focus on 32. Let’s talk about that one. Oh, it’s 33 and 34 actually. Do you want to read that for us?
 
Jon: “The twelve are a traveling presiding high council to officiate in the name of the Lord under the direction of the presidency of the church, agreeable to the institution of heaven to build up the church and regulate all the affairs of the same, in all the nations, first unto the Gentiles, and secondly unto the Jews.”
 
Pres. Barker: Okay, what do you understand that to be, in terms of the ordinances that we participate in, in the Church? Or that anybody who belongs to the Church might participate in? Does it say how they should be performed and who would direct, who would perform those ordinances?
 
Jon: I don’t see the word ordinances in there.
 
Pres. Barker: Okay, well let’s say, ‘regulat[ing] all the affairs’ of the church, what does that mean to you?
 
Jon: Well, first of all, the first, the only man who was ever called the Prophet was Joseph Smith, up until David O. McKay in the 1950’s. Brigham Young refused the title Prophet, and he insisted on being called the President. All the other Presidents took the same thing. When President McKay was forced to take that title, he was embarrassed, at first, and refused to take it, and insisted on people calling him the President of the Church. So, I take that to mean that they are to officiate in the affairs of the church, which they do a great job at. They buy land, they build buildings, they, you know, they officiate over the temporal affairs of the church, which is also scriptural. So, that’s their job. It’s to officiate, right?
 
Pres. Barker: Let me unwind you for just a minute, there. It says to ‘regulate all the affairs of the [church]’.
 
Jon: Mmhm! Sure!
 
Pres. Barker: So, that doesn’t mean, like, baptism? You don’t think that means baptism.
 
Jon: Well, I think that Christ has an obligation and a ministry on the earth that is separate from the Church. So, for instance, Article of Faith 6 says that we believe in the organization of the church in the New Testament times, right? This was quoted to me, (by the bishop) that [this] means we have apostles and prophets, right? So, I believe in that, too! So, in the New Testament times, there was a man called of God. He was called directly by God, by the voice of God from heaven, as Genesis 14 declares that all priesthood is supposed to come. That man’s name is Paul. He was not voted in by the quorum of the Twelve, by Peter, James and John. They actually voted in a separate man. Paul was called directly by the Lord. Peter, James and John did not get jealous of Paul, they did not censure him, they did not kick him out of their church, they did not excommunicate him, or call him and say, [slaps palm on scripture] ‘we have the authority!’ They said, why don’t you write the New Testament Paul? Paul is responsible for almost two-thirds of the New Testament. So, all I want, honestly, is to worship God in private. I’ve never once preached that the Church doesn’t have authority. I believe the Church has all the public authority to officiate in all of the Church’s ordinances. I would submit to you President, I don’t do the Church’s ordinances. I baptize, by having the authority of Christ, by his own voice from heaven to me. I don’t use the words that the church uses, I don’t say ‘having been commissioned’. I have not been commissioned, I have been given authority from Christ, see the difference? And I don’t baptize to a church. I don’t belong to any other church but the LDS Church, and I desire to remain a member of that Church. And I believe that I can coexist, if you’ll let me. And I’m asking you to let me worship in private. I’m not advertising, I’m not speaking evil of you, or the prophet or anyone else. I’m simply pursuing God according to the dictates of my own conscience, as Article of Faith 11 says. Which, if you read the history, Joseph said that [Article of faith 11] in reference to a man being excommunicated because he had a different point of view. Joseph said: I don’t like that. I don’t like a man being called up; it sounds too much like the Methodists. Mormonism doesn’t have creeds that a man must believe or else he’ll be kicked out. Instead, he reinstated the man. So, I believe, you asked me about Joseph Smith, Joseph Smith saw angels. Joseph Smith talked with God. Joseph Smith got power directly from God. Genesis 14 of the Joseph Smith Translation says that priesthood comes “not by man, nor by the will of man,” not by woman, but by God directly from heaven, see? So, I don’t fight against the Church, I never have. But I do believe that God can, and will, and does [minister to man outside some "authorized channel"].  Another example is Moses. Did you know Moses didn’t come through the line of the Israelites? He was a Midianite, right? He was ordained under the hand of his father-in-law Jethro. So, you want to tell me, President, that God has done his work and that he doesn’t speak to men any longer?
 
Pres. Barker: No, no, no. Please, please stop.
 
Jon: …[you want to tell me] he can’t come and speak to men outside the Church authority? I disagree. That’s where I disagree, that’s all.
 
Kari: Well, according to our Bishop.
 
Jon: Yeah, that’s what our Bishop said. Hey, I don’t have authority to officiate in God’s ordinances.
 
Pres. Barker: You don’t.
 
Jon: Why would you say that when God says I do?
 
Pres. Barker: You remember that verse we just read?
 
Jon: Yeah.
 
Pres. Barker: Ok, well, the authorized construction of that verse is that only those that have authority to baptize, from the priesthood that was restored by John the Baptist, or Peter, James and John or Joseph Smith, must receive that authorization through the First Presidency and the Quorum of the Twelve as exists today.
 
Jon: So, what about Paul and Moses? What about them?
 
Pres. Barker: I’m talking about today.
 
Jon: What about Alma?
 
Pres. Barker: I’m talking about today.
 
Jon: So, let me understand this.
 
Pres. Barker: Yes.
 
Jon: You’re saying that today, we’re going to go away from the scriptural model, and you’re going to enforce a rule of the Church Handbook, which is not scriptural, which I don’t have access to, which I don’t know what it says. But I do know that… You know what the iron rod is? In Lehi’s dream?
 
Pres. Barker: Jon.
 
Jon: Do you know what I’ve covenanted to obey, President? No, I’m upset!
 
Pres. Barker: Please…
 
Jon: Do you know what I’ve covenanted to obey in the temple? The Law of the Gospel! And they hold up this book. [holds up quad] You’re asking me to abandon and go against the covenants I’ve made to God in his Holy temple. I’ve not covenanted to obey the Handbook, and I’ve not covenanted to obey a verse that doesn’t say anything about ordinances. Furthermore, the history of this verse actually shows that the Quorum of the Twelve is able to preside wherever there is no stake of Zion organized. That’s the complete version of that verse. So, the traveling High Council, or the Twelve, officiated wherever there weren’t stakes. That’s why Joseph Smith officiated in the High Council, not in the Quorum of the Twelve. And all the members of the First Presidency were always called, not from the Quorum of the Twelve, but from outside it. So, it’s a completely different organization. And that’s why I say, why? I’m not trying to get a following…
 
Pres. Barker: That’s fine.
 
Jon: …or have a church.
 
Pres. Barker: That’s fine.
 
I’m just simply blessing the sacrament in my home!
 
Pres. Barker: That’s, that’s fine, Jon. You’ve been given the priesthood…
 
Jon: Absolutely!
 
Pres. Barker: …by those who were ordained through a line that goes through John the Baptist, Peter, James and John giving it to Joseph Smith. Those authorized to determine who can exercise that priesthood.
 
Jon: Where is that in scripture? that someone can limit...
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, it’s right there. ‘All the affairs of the church.’ That means everything, particularly the ordinances are regulated by the person that…
 
Jon: So, why did we do baptisms clear up until 1950, why did we do rebaptisms? And now you’re saying I can’t? Because to me, that sounds like a policy change; and that’s what the Lord told me: 

"That’s not even my word Jon, that’s a policy change. Are you going to obey me or men?"

 It’s a choice between God and the arm of flesh. And all I want to do is officiate in private, and you can do all the public officiating you want.
 
Pres. Barker: And, Jon, you can do all the private officiating that you choose to do, but not under the authority that was given you through the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
 
Jon: Perfect! I don’t then! I got my authority directly from Jesus. He’s come to me and given me that authority. I don’t use the Church’s priesthood. Perfect!
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, and that’s fine. If you persist in that path…
 
Jon: No, no! I’m not using your priesthood!
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, if you persist in teaching that, as a doctrine…
 
Jon: I’m not teaching that! I’m acting in it.
 
Pres. Barker: You’re teaching it right here. [gestures to everyone, especially kids]
 
Jon: I have the right to officiate and preside in my home.
 
Pres. Barker: You’re teaching it to your children…
 
Jon: Absolutely! I’m commanded to, by scripture, to teach the law of the gospel as contained in the scriptures! You open scriptures. Let’s open some scriptures because the rest of the scriptures, preach the doctrine of Christ!
 
Pres. Barker: Please, go ahead. We’ve got to leave by 9:30, but please take as much time as you’d like. But, before you do, let me just tell you that the doctrine that you’re teaching is not the doctrine of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
 
Jon: So, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has let go of the iron rod. Is that what you’re telling me?
 
Pres. Barker: No, Jon. I’m saying that the doctrine you’re following is not the doctrine of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
 
Jon: Amen! 

And that’s sad. Because it’s not the doctrine of Christ. He actually says, repent, be baptized in the name of Christ, partake of the sacrament [with] wine and bread; any more or less than this cometh of evil. What you’re telling me is that you’re making some policy up that changes from prophet to prophet. So, which one led me astray? David O. McKay, when he said it was fine to get rebaptized? You see the problem? Joseph Smith got rebaptized several times. Brigham Young was rebaptized.
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, can I stop you for a minute?
 
Jon: Sure! I just don’t understand how I’m differing in doctrine in scriptures.
 
Pres. Barker: You are. You are.
 
Jon: Ok.
 
Pres. Barker: If you ask the leadership of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints whether a person should be rebaptized, what would they tell you?
 
Jon: Uh, probably no.
 
Pres. Barker: Not probably.
 
Jon: Ok, no!
 
Pres. Barker: Absolutely no!
 
Jon: So, that’s a policy, because until 1950 we did it! So, you see the difference? Doctrine doesn’t change! Joseph institutes it, tell me which prophet has the right…[to change what Joseph had revealed to him by God?]
 
Pres. Barker: Do you believe in polygamy?
 
Jon: Absolutely not!

[this made me laugh! My perverse sense of humor almost said, "no, but would you like to meet my other wives and question them?" But I really don't, so that would have confused him and the issue]. 
 
Pres. Barker: Alright, ok! In any event, Jon, that is not the doctrine of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, that there be rebaptism.
 
Jon: So, I mean, I’m officiating in that…
 
Pres. Barker: So, you shouldn’t teach that!
 
Jon: I don’t teach it, that’s the Church’s doctrine!
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, have you baptized your children?
 
Jon: Absolutely!
 
Pres. Barker: Ok, ok. That’s teaching it.
 
Jon: Well, I can teach it in my own family? Or no?
 
Pres. Barker: In order to remain a member..
 
Jon: So, you’re micromanaging, then…
 
Valarie: Let me testify, then.
 
Pres. Barker: Please, please. We asked to speak with your parents. You’re welcome to listen.
 
Valarie: Ok…
 
Jon: Let her talk! Let her talk! 
 
Pres. Barker: Brother, brother Jon…
 
Jon: No! Let her talk!!!

[prez slumps into his chair silenced by the force of the Spirit of God]
 
Valarie: You brought up a thing, and it’s not fair to speak a thing in my presence [and let it stand] when I know it’s false [and can rebut it]. He [pointing to me] offered something, only by preaching out of the scripture. He did not say, I will do this for you. He did not say, I am going out and doing it. I didn’t know he was doing it until I realized, by him bringing up scripture: O my gosh, Jesus commands me to be baptized. The only reason he gave it, was because God gave authority, and I asked. The only reason. So, don’t pin that on him, that’s all I’m saying.
 
Jon: Thank you for letting her speak.
 
Pres. Barker: Sure. Well, Jon. We’re going to go ahead and proceed. We’ll confer before we do so.
 
Jon: Alright.
 
Pres. Barker: But, apparently, this is what you believe and it’s what you’ve been taught, and you’re going to go with what you’ve been teaching. Is that what you’re going to continue to teach to your children?
 
Jon: Yeah! And just so I, just for the record, I do believe that it is a private matter and I’m not trying to take it public, I’m not trying to… I don’t use the Church’s words, I don’t use the Church’s implements, like I don’t use the same thing the Church uses.
 
Pres. Barker: I understand that.
 
Jon: So, our view is outside of that.
 
Pres. Barker: Then you should not have any difficulty with having…
 
Jon: So, it’s a separate ordinance!
 
Pres. Barker: …your relationship to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints severed, it sounds like.
 
Jon: Well, why would you want to do that to me, when I…
 
Pres. Barker: Because, it’s called apostasy.
 
Jon: No, apostasy is when you leave the truth, and the scriptures are telling me… I want to ask you something.
 
Pres. Barker: Please.
 
Jon: Can you quote a scripture that says: Repent, and rely on your baptism from 20 years ago?  It’s all present tense, President. All of it! And in Alma 5:62, it says, this is your Book of Mormon, whom the Church website still says is the most correct book on the earth, Alma 5:62 says, the members are commanded to be baptized, and the nonmembers are invited to be baptized. Why would members, who presumably were baptized, be commanded to be baptized? Well, for the same reason Joseph rebaptized people all the time, and so did Brigham Young. Because rebaptism is a fundamental core of the Doctrine of Christ; it’s "Be" baptized. Moroni 8:25 says, the firstfruits of repentance are… baptism! I don’t know about you guys, but I still sin! When I repent, the scripture, the most correct book on earth says, "the firstfruits of repentance are to be baptized!" It doesn’t say, the firstfruits of repentance are think back and remember [your last baptism]. Because, do you know when they started making the sacrament, [all about] ‘renewing your [baptismal] covenants’? If you study it out, it’s in the 1950’s, right when they stopped allowing rebaptisms. So, they changed the doctrine, to cover up the fact that they didn’t want people to do rebaptisms. It’s part of our history. You can pretend it doesn’t exist. We can all say, (in dramatic deep voice) "well, now the new guy…" Long live the King, right? Well, as soon as this king dies, what is the next guy going to say?
 
Pres. Ogden: Hey, Jon, let me ask you a question.
 
Jon: Yeah. Sure.
 
Pres. Ogden: You’re pretty adamant that you’re not teaching this, right?
 
Jon: Yeah.
 
Pres. Ogden: And you’re teaching us right now.
 
Jon: Well, you asked why I’m doing it! So, I feel I’m obligated to tell you, doctrinally.
 
Pres. Ogden: Right. You don’t do this outside of your family? You don’t teach this to others?
 
Jon: Uh, no, that’s true. People do come to me, but I don’t seek them out.
 
Pres. Ogden: So, you’re teaching them!
 
Jon: So, if someone…
 
Pres. Ogden: Because they’re coming to you…
 
Jon: Well, see, that’s where I differ. I don’t call it teaching, I call it a discussion on the gospel. They come and tell me stuff that they believe… kind of like you, you meet with your friend about your car. So, my whole life is the gospel of Jesus Christ. But I don’t actively seek to recruit people, proselyte people; I don’t go out and try to convince them to my way. If someone comes and says, Jon, what do you believe about the doctrine of Christ? I’ll open up 2 Nephi 31-2, I’ll open up 3 Nephi 18 and I’ll read the scriptures! And I’ll say, well, what do you think? And they’re like, well that sounds like I should be baptized if I want to repent!
 
Pres. Ogden: A few more questions. You’re baptizing other people besides your family?
 
Jon: Sure.
 
Pres. Ogden: Ok.
 
Jon: When asked, yeah.
 
Pres. Ogden: When asked? How many? Just out of curiousity.
 
Jon: A lot. I’ve been doing this since 2012.
 
Pres. Ogden: Since 2012.
 
Jon: Absolutely.
 
Pres. Ogden: And up until then, you were fine with most of the doctrine, following the prophet of the Church?
 
Jon: I still follow the prophet.

(As an aside, I do understand the difference between receiving prophets and following them. But I was interrupted and we never got back to it. This is one of the many ways I failed in this interview as I should have clarified what I meant and not let this statement stand.)
 
Pres. Ogden: Ok, well you followed him. You kind of made it sound like: "President Monson, good guy up there." But do you believe that he has authority from God, just like you claim to have?
 
Jon: Yeah, yeah!
 
Pres. Ogden: You think he does as well?
 
Jon: Well, I’ll quote you his words.
 
Pres. Ogden: No, I just want a yes or no answer.
 
Jon: No, no! I want to quote you his words, because it’s important. In the April 2010 General Conference, in his talk, you can look it up, he says: 

My testimony of Christ is based on the eye-witness accounts of others who have seen him. 

I don’t believe President Monson would lie. I actually believe he’s trustworthy. When he testifies, over the pulpit in General Conference, that his testimony of Jesus is based on the eye-witness accounts of others, I believe him. So, no! I don’t think he’s talked to Jesus! Because he told me he didn’t!

Pres. Ogden: Never! He’s never…
 
Jon: He said his witness of Christ was based on the eye-witness accounts of others. That’s recent!
 
Pres. Ogden: So, you don’t believe he’s a prophet of God similar to how you believe Joseph Smith was a prophet of God. You believe he is…
 
Jon: Ok!
 
Pres. Ogden: Hold on! You believe he is the President of the Church and he has the right to take care of all the temporal affairs of the church: buy land, church buildings. But as far as speaking with the Lord, being a prophet just like Joseph was… Because I believe he was a prophet just like Joseph was. He is a prophet just like Joseph was. I believe he has the authority to do so, and he holds the priesthood keys.
 
Jon: Yeah. Yeah.
 
Pres. Ogden: But you don’t believe that.
 
Jon: That’s not true. I believe he can, but when he testifies… see, it’s an obligation, a scriptural edict, that when any leader of the Church has seen God, or had a revelation, that they state so. So, when he states exactly opposite, in public, over the pulpit, I just believe him. I’m not disbelieving that he doesn’t. What I’m saying is, he’s never told me that he has. So, where has he said, ‘I’ve received prophesy’? He never has; I’ve searched! And searched! And searched!
 
Pres. Ogden: Ok, Kari, do your beliefs differ at all from your husbands? Or…
 
Kari: No.
 
Pres. Ogden: Ok.
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, just so I’m clear on your feelings about President Monson, I’ve never heard him talk about rebaptism.
 
Jon: Sure!
 
Pres. Barker: Ok, so, you think he’s gone astray on that?
 
Jon: No, I don’t judge him on that at all.
 
Pres. Barker: Well, do you think that Church Doctrine… Because the doctrine of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, as it exists today, does not teach rebaptism.
 
Jon: So, I would ask, where’s the scriptural proof of that?
 
Pres. Barker: Well, let’s just assume…
 
Kari: And I would say that they need to repent and follow the scripture!
 
Jon: Look, we’re under condemnation.
 
Kari: We’re under condemnation!
 
Jon: Do you believe that President Benson was a prophet?
 
Pres. Barker: Yeah, yeah I do.
 
Kari: We’re not taking this seriously!
 
Jon: We’re under condemnation because we refuse to abide the precepts of the most correct book.
 
Kari: We’re trying to remove that from us. If the church wants to, [do something else] that’s fine. Individually, I get to do it. I can’t control the Church, but I can control what happens now, and I’m going to follow this [gestures to Book of Mormon].
 
Pres. Ogden: And you… Your whole family has the right to believe how you want to.
 
Jon: Yeah, thank you.
 
Pres. Ogden: Obviously, all of us do. Doesn’t mean we have to agree on it.
 
Jon: Right, exactly. And I’m ok with that.
 
Pres. Ogden: You’re a little forceful! You’re a little, you’re a little argumentative in here.
 
Jon: I’m feeling a little bit… [under attack] because I just [got called] in to the Bishop’s office two days ago out of the blue, this is all in violation of Doctrine and Covenants, which requires that I have two witnesses against me. I’ve never seen the witness, never spoken to the witness.
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, there’s three of us right here.
 
Jon: It’s actually a conflict of interest for the leaders to be the witnesses. There’s supposed to be a witness. Who told on us? Some guy, I know who he is...but that man should stand up and come and say, this is what, [and] this and that. But I’m not going to hide, so I just told the Bishop everything.

Pres. Ogden: Out of curiosity, in the Pioneer Ward, you feel, according to your visitation, how many visitations from the Lord have you had?
 
Jon: Oh… I don’t know, I haven’t counted.
 
Pres. Ogden: So, more than one.
 
Jon: Right, as Joseph says in Doctrine & Covenants 130: 3, the Lord says that…
 
Kari: You don’t want to hear the scriptures do you?
 
Pres. Ogden: Really?!
 
Kari: Really!
 
Jon: … the Second Comforter, the Lord will appear… It’s D&C 130:3, it says, the Lord will come from time to time and abide with thee.

Pres. Ogden: So, the Lord has told you that you’ve been given authority by the Lord?
 
Jon: Yeah.
 
Pres. Ogden: To perform the ordinances?
 
Jon: Yeah, But not to fight against the Church! He expressly forbid me from that! He said, don’t…
 
Pres. Ogden: Sure, sure. So, your sacrament is different from the sacrament…
 
Jon: Absolutely. The words are different, and the implements used are different. So that’s why I would suggest…
 
Pres. Ogden: So, out of curiosity, I was happy to see you guys at sacrament today, why, why are you…
 
Jon: Because, I’ve been Mormon all my life. Hopefully, I’ll remain a Mormon all my life. I want to be Mormon, and so I sustain President Monson.
 
Pres. Ogden: Not as a prophet.
 
Jon: No! I do sustain him as a prophet! That’s the name of his office.
 
Pres. Ogden: No, you said president.
 
Pres. Barker: But, let me just ask you…
 
Jon: Let me, let me clarify real quick and then you should tell me--So, if a Bishop calls a Gospel Doctrine teacher, and they suck, right? I still raise my hand and sustain them as a teacher. But that doesn’t mean they're actually a good teacher. So, a seer… so, like in the Book of Mormon, when they bring the Jaredite plates to king Benjamin, who translates them? King Benjamin!

[I was cut off here. The thought continuing is: when they have ancient records now do they bring them to President Monson as the "seer" or the "translator", to translate as in the Book of Mormon, or do they send them down to the scholars at the universities? His office may be called "prophet, seer and revelator" but does he exhibit the gifts?]
 
Pres. Ogden: Do you believe that President Monson speaks with the Lord just as you say you do?

Jon: I hope so, but I don’t know because he hasn’t told me. See the difference? He hasn’t told me that he has like Joseph did. Joseph would say, 'thus saith the Lord.'
 
Pres. Ogden: So, every prophet that we consider a prophet after Joseph Smith, you don’t necessarily consider a prophet unless you read that he’s said it…
 
Jon: Well, that’s what we forget in our short minds because our history…
 
Pres. Ogden: That’s a yes?
 
Jon: Well yes! But it’s clear and it’s based on history. See, we have a short memory and we think every prophet between Joseph and David O. McKay… we didn’t call prophet, we called them President. So, that didn’t happen in our lifetime, so we forget that. And so now today we want to place this man between us and God. I submit the number one reason for apostasy from Christ is: that the prophet can’t lead us astray. He’s not infallible. Every other dispensation, a man could lead people astray, but suddenly in ours, we have this man who’s infallible and can’t. I don’t believe that. I don’t think he is leading us astray. I’m saying the possibility exists that he could.
 
[here is another failing of mine, when I said, "I don't think he is leading us astray". By the church handbook of instructions own policies, the church or President Monson or whoever is in charge, IS leading us astray because they deny us unchanged ordinances and then forbid and try to force us not to perform them privately, thereby denying members the possibility of receiving the power of Godliness which is what we require to behold the face of God and live as per D&C 84. I should have clarified.]

Pres. Barker: But isn’t he leading us astray on rebaptism in your view? Just like your wife told…
 
Jon: No. Because, I’m free to pursue God according to the dictates of my conscience in private. It’s a private matter, which I’m asking you to just let me go my way in peace.
 
Pres. Ogden: If President Monson came out  next General Conference and said, I am a prophet, I speak with the Lord regularly just as Joseph did, what would be your remarks there?
 
Jon: I would like that actually. I would be…
 
Pres. Ogden: Would you consider him… so, based on that, he’s a prophet because he has stated he has spoken with the Lord? Cause that’s kind of what you hinged it on.
 
Jon: No, Revelations 19: 10 says, the spirit of prophesy is the testimony of Jesus, meaning Jesus has testified to you of your standing, he’s given you calling and election, or he’s stating he’s testified to the Father. So, that’s the sacrament prayer, right? That Christ is going to witness to the Father of our unworthiness or worthiness. That’s why it’s so critical we’re worthy before we partake. If the firstfruits of repentance is baptism, then it’s probably a good idea, if you want to be clean or worthy before you take the sacrament, to get baptized first. See the progression?
 
Pres. Ogden: Do you consider yourself a prophet?
 
Jon: No.
 
Pres. Ogden: That you’ve spoken with the Lord more times than you can count?
 
Jon: Well, if you define it that way. But I don’t claim such, I just want to be clear: I don’t claim such, to be like--be your leader.
 
Pres. Ogden: Do the kids? Do you see your Dad as a prophet? Someone who has spoken with the Lord multiple times?
 
Valarie: I don’t know. That's his standing. I think all we can know is our own standing and let others pursue, trust they are…
 
Pres. Ogden: Right.
 
Jon: Yeah, I’m not trying to be the boss of my family either, I guess, really.
 
Pres. Ogden: So, if someone says, wow, you have spoken with the Lord face to face, he’s given you authority for these ordinances; Jon, are you a prophet? Your response is: yes or no.
 
Jon: I’d say no. I would say, he can give you the same thing if you fast and pray and go to him. Coming unto Christ means he’ll come to you, and that you can. It’s available for all. President Monson, all of you guys, me; it’s not exclusive to me. I claim no special privileges. I don’t think it’s any different from what we talk about as priesthood in the church, except that in the scriptures, there’s always an organization [which gives] from man to man, and then, like Moses, the Lord shows up. Enoch, the Lord shows up. Joseph, the Lord shows up. All throughout scripture, Jacob, Nephi, all of them! Almost every single man in the Book of Mormon has this priesthood given by men, and then God shows up after. And so, I look at the invitation of the Church as an invitation to receive priesthood and then I have to go to God to sanction it in order for me to have real priesthood power. And so I don’t believe that gives me any right to take authority from the Church. I delineate between authority to officiate… tell you guys what to do; I don’t have any right to go into my Bishop and say, you know what? God spoke to me and you… No! That’s… see, I get that, but in my private worship, I believe God can give me authority to officiate in ordinances that are salvific. And that’s the only reason I’m doing this: because I believe it’s saving. It is salvific to do the doctrine of Christ which is baptism and the sacrament.
 
Pres. Turley: That’s such a great contradiction, though, between your personal beliefs and what the church, you know, is teaching. Why would you want to stay in an organization that you feel is so contradictory to you what you believe personally? If the leaders are off…
 
Jon: Yeah. It’s a good question.
 
Pres. Turley: …then why are you still following, coming to and following the Bishop when he presides over different meetings? Why?
 
Jon: Because in the early days of the church they didn’t conflate the issues. Joseph Smith said to the Relief Society, your minds are darkened because you’re relying too much on the prophet. So, he was pushing people away from reliance on him. He was asking them to go get their own witness. So, I don’t see it as contradictory. The only faults I see in the presiding men of the church, the only value I see in that, (finding fault) is to help me understand that the Holy One of Israel is the one who is the Keeper of the Gate, that Christ is the One that Saves. Outside of that, of course they’re making mistakes! Of course they’re doing bone-headed things. Joseph did bone-headed things, right? His banks failed, he declared bankruptcy. I mean, you can look at the history, and Joseph was this mess up. And yet today we claim they can’t mess up and it doesn’t make sense to me. So, I can see they’re messing up in the business side of things, and it doesn’t bother me, because I’m not looking to them for salvation. So, to me, the Church is the--it’s God’s Church, not President Monson’s. I’ve sworn allegiance to Him, I’ve covenanted with God, I’ve covenanted to obey the scriptures, I’ve covenanted to hold fast to the iron rod, which Nephi says is the word of God. I can’t get that from a man. I have to get it from God. That’s what the scriptures continually tell me. Nephi, Alma, they all go to the Lord. So, I don’t see it as a contradiction at all. I love these men, I really do. I’ve grown up with them. I’m just not looking to them for salvation, because I recognize salvation comes from the one man who can give it: they Way, the Truth, and the Life; "I am the Holy One of Israel." (He says). This is all in our scriptures. So, I just want to, honestly, if you guys hadn’t been told by some guy that I was doing this, I would have continued for years, hopefully decades, until I died doing this in private. I wouldn’t have caused trouble, I wouldn’t have railed or fought. I still won’t! If you guys even, whatever, get mad and feel like you have to put your thumb on me, which I think is unnecessary. I’m begging you to just not.
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, let me tell you what our standard is.
 
Jon: Ok.
 
Pres. Barker: If you teach as church doctrine…
 
Jon: I don’t.
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, aren’t you teaching that, as you just expressed, rebaptism is what the church doctrine…
 
Jon: No! I’m teaching that the scriptures teach that. The Church is teaching something different. I’m in line with the scriptures, but I don’t claim the right to tell them what to do, so I just let them go.
 
Kari: See the difference?
 
Jon: But go ahead and do the Church thing...
 
Pres. Ogden: Every question, though, I’ve asked you, you’ve taught. But you say you don’t teach! I don’t understand.
 
Jon: So, would you rather me say, yes, no, and not teach you the doctrine that you seem to be either ignoring, ignorant of, or you’re choosing rebelliously against God to ignore, because I’m reading to you right from the truest book on the planet, and you’re saying, "well, that’s not our current doctrine." That’s offensive to me, and so I’m asking you let me just go away.
 
Pres. Barker: We can’t, Jon.
 
Jon: Ok.
 
Pres. Barker: Because you’re an ordained Elder in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. If you persist in this way of thinking, we’ll need to hold a disciplinary council where excommunication will be considered.
 
Jon: Well, that’s your choice and I would beg you not to do it. I don’t want to leave the church. I don’t want to fight against the church, I never have. I want it on the record that I’m only following Christ. I believe there’s a difference between public and private; you’re a judge, you know that. There’s a difference, there’s a big difference. I’ve stayed in honor with the Church by not speaking evil of the Lord’s anointed. I’ve stayed in honor by not publicly going out and trying to do this. I’ve stayed in honor by keeping this as private as possible. And I think that you guys have the authority to just go,  "well as long as you keep it private, go ahead; we’ll just do our public thing."
 
Pres. Barker: We don’t have that authority.
 
Jon: Well, the scriptures actually say that the Stake High Council is equal in authority to the twelve. Brigham Young changed that and conflated it to make the Twelve apostles have authority to tell you what to do. So, do you not think you have authority to just let me go?
 
Pres. Barker: We don’t; absolutely not.
 
Jon: Why not?
 
Pres. Barker: Because we need to follow… because that verse I read to you in D&C 107: 34 says that, the First Presidency and the quorum of the Twelve regulate all the affairs of the church, and that includes the ordinances, and you are participating…
 
Jon: Can’t you see I’m operating outside of the Church’s ordinances?
 
Pres. Barker: Not while you hold the Melchizedek Priesthood.
 
Jon: Well, I actually hold the priesthood after the order of the Son, if you would like to know.
 
Pres. Barker: Well, you were… I’m not going to argue with you. I’m just going to let…
 
Jon: No, I’m not arguing; I’m just clarifying what priesthood I hold, actually. And I would like to let you guys know that Doctrine & Covenants 121 says that "the rights of the priesthood are inseparably connected to the powers of heaven." (Repeated again slowly and with emphasis) "The rights of the priesthood are inseparably connected to the powers of heaven." INSEPARABLY! You can’t separate the priesthood from the Powers of Heaven. I have a connection with the Powers of Heaven. My priesthood will not end with a Church court, although you may think it does. It only allows the Lord to judge you by the standard you’re judging me with, and I’m begging you to give me mercy, so he can be merciful to you!
 
Pres. Barker: We appreciate that.
 
Jon: Honestly!
 
Pres. Barker: We appreciate that.
 
Jon: I really do...
 
Pres. Barker: I understand that.
 
Jon: …want mercy for you!
 
Pres. Barker: Thank you. Thank you.
 
Jon: I’m asking for that, for me so that I can just…
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, we need to proceed as I’ve outlined. Kari, the same would be true in this for you. We’d be happy to meet. We’d like to meet separately with each of you, if you would be willing to do that.
 
Jon: That’s up to Kari.
 
Kari: For… what? Separately for what?
 
Pres. Barker: Well, just to communicate. Just so we get… this is a serious matter and…
 
Jon: [whispered] Divide and conquer.
 
Pres. Barker: …we would not do this in front of your children. You… it’s a separate…
 
Jon: They actually requested to be excommunicated with us. I’m going to allow them to speak for themselves, but if they want...
 
Pres. Barker: And they will have that opportunity. They will each have that opportunity to do so. It will be a separate proceedings and…
 
Jon: Is there any way to do it as a family?
 
Pres. Barker: No, there is not. There is not. But those proceedings can be arranged for those… who’s been baptized? By… let me phrase it this way, Who’s been baptized by someone in the, under the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints? Not, rebaptism. Who’s been baptized?
 
[Valarie (19), Walker (17), Angela (15), Sterling (13), Natalie (12), raise hands.]
 
Pres. Barker: Ok, each of you, absolutely, will have to… you know, the Bishop will visit with you, and if this is what you believe, then, yes, the Bishop will have to go ahead and if that’s what you believe and you want to continue believing that, then you would not be able to remain a member in good standing in the Church.
 
Jon: And just so my kids know, and you all know, they are free to choose for themselves and they are not compelled by me, in any way. So, I just… I want them to know. I just want to testify to them. Please take his counsel seriously and do…
 
Pres. Barker:  … are willing to allow… certainly, you’re the parents and… well, if you’re over 18, so we typically do that for everybody under 18… we wouldn’t meet with any of your children without your permission.
 
Jon: Sure. And they’re free to make their own choice. So, if they stay a member, and that’s what they want, that’s fine with me. I would actually encourage it, actually. I would encourage my children to remain members.
 
Pres. Barker: Well, they wouldn’t be able to do that and accept rebaptism and…
 
Jon: Exactly.
 
Pres. Barker: …participate in any of the sacraments that you’re offering.
 
Jon: Ok.
 
Pres. Barker: So, they would not be able to remain members.
 
Jon: Ok.
 
Pres. Barker: Yeah, just so it’s clear. Do you kids understand that?
 
[multiple affirmations from the kids]
 
Pres. Barker: You can’t go and… I know it’s what your Dad believes and I know he believes it with all his heart, but it’s not the doctrine of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
 
[multiple affirmations from the kids]
 
Pres. Barker: So, you would have to choose. Well, we’ll have the opportunity to confer and then we’ll… we can either speak on the phone, we have to do these things in writing to be in compliance with what we need to do. And they are separate from what the disciplinary councils are. I typically separate for each person, now. But the kids will, if they want to do that, I, we’ll get permission, because if they’d like you to be there I…
 
Jon: Well, is it different from stake to stake? Because I’ve read several stories where they excommunicated husband and wife, sometimes without even notifying the wife that she was on trial, but they just ex-ed her anyways.
 
Pres. Barker: No, we would not. This would be, this would be separate meetings.
 
Jon: And I’ve heard of children being at the same proceedings, so, that’s why I assumed it would be possible to do it together; it’s cause I’ve actually read accounts where it happened that way.
 
Pres. Barker: Well, that’s not… that may be right but that’s not my understanding of how it works.
 
Jon: Ok.
 
Pres. Barker: We would, we will confer, we’ll make sure we do it in a proper way and then we’ll…
 
Jon: So, will there be two witnesses that are called against me? Outside, that are…
 
Pres. Barker: There likely will not be witnesses different than those that…
 
Jon: Alright. And the Doctrine and Covenants says that it shall be tried on the scriptures? And it’s not according to the handbook? D&C actually has that verb-age, that the trial shall be done… Is it by the scriptures or by the handbook?
 
Pres. Barker: What we’ll follow is the doctrine of the Church…
 
Jon: So, the Handbook.
 
Pres. Barker: …of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, which is clearly based upon the scriptures.
 
Jon: Well, there’s glaring differences.
 
Pres. Barker: Jon, that’s your…
 
Jon: So, I’d like to see the witnesses and have them be able to face me.
 
Pres. Barker: Absolutely. Any evidences presented against you, you will be there for.
 
Jon: So, there will be an accuser outside of my own leaders? Or…
 
Pres. Barker: No, it may not be anybody different than us or your Bishop.
 
Jon: You guys have a bias then, it’s not a fair trial.
 
Pres. Barker: And you’re welcome to, if we’re not authorized to do it that way, we won’t; if we are, we will. And you’re welcome to appeal.
 
Jon: Alright. Yeah, I’ve been reading about it today and there are scriptures that say it should be done according to the scriptures, and I read the account, the handbook version, and it’s different, so…
 
Pres. Barker: Well, we will follow what the current doctrine is of the Church…
 
Jon: So, the handbook then. Ok!
 
Pres. Barker: …of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. That’s what we will do.
 
Jon: Well, I object to that and…
 
Pres. Barker: That’s fine!
 
Jon: …I do not consent to being tried according to a Handbook, which I don’t have access to, and I’m not sure what it says exactly. I would implore you to please use the scriptures as written. Joseph was revealed to, directly from God, on how to proceed in these matters.
 
Pres. Barker: That’s why, it’s completely your choice to the extent that you participate or choose not to participate.
 
Jon: Well, scripturally I would have to be there, but ok.
 
Pres. Barker: It’s whatever you choose to do. Kari, same for you. And then, they’re likely to be held, because Jon’s a Melchizedek Priesthood holder, we go ahead, that will be held in a Stake setting; because you’re not a Melchizedek Priesthood holder, that will be held in the Bishopric for you to do it and if the children choose to go that route. So that’s how that works.
 
Kari: Well, thanks for telling me how it works.
 
Pres. Ogden: I think it’s helpful.
 
Pres. Barker: Yeah, and we’re happy to, if that’s the decision, very happy to meet, and confer and go over how we’ll proceed.
 
Jon: Well, my decision is not to be excommunicated, my decision is to be…
 
Pres. Barker: That’s not a choice you have.
 
Jon: Um, ok.
 
Pres. Barker: That’s what… That’s the…
 
Kari: That’s the decision he’s made. (Pointing to President Barker)
 
Pres. Barker: Yeah, right. Yeah. Your choice is whether to persist in your teaching.
 
Jon: Well, actually it’s to obey the covenants that I’ve made in the temple.
 
Pres. Barker: Yes, I understand that. (As an aside, it's incredible to me he just said he understands he would be asking me to break my temple covenants, but he's going to anyway!)
 
Jon: So, if you’re asking me to stop that, I would be breaking temple covenants. And honestly? I’d rather let you revile me and blasphemy against me than to break my covenants with God. So, I just wish you wouldn’t do that kind of stuff. Kind of sucks for you. I think it’s time to go.
 
Pres. Barker: Well, we love you guys. You look like a great group, and I can tell there’s some good people over here. And you’ve got parents that love you and care about you and that’s obvious to me. Why don’t we have a word of prayer? President Turley, would you offer that? Thank you so much!

(At this point we all laughed out loud at the preposterousness of the moment, where they are telling us with a smile they love us while they murder us. (Spiritually, at least to their understanding). Paul Toscano's remark came to my mind and made me laugh. He commented about his experience: "it was like being raped by the Care Bears". Yep. We're going to do this to you but we will smile and tell you we love you while we do it, so it's ok. Relax and enjoy it, we love you! This was the first time I had ever spoken to the Stake president and one of his counselors, and had met the other only one time briefly.)

This ended the interview. They told us that they would be filing the paperwork and we would be noticed when the trial was to be held. They also assured us repeatedly that we didn't need to show up to the trial. 

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Miracles

For it shall come to pass in that day that the churches which are built up, and not unto the Lord, when the one shall say unto the other: Behold, I, I am the Lord’s; and the others shall say: I, I am the Lord’s; and thus shall every one say that hath built up churches, and not unto the Lord--
And they shall contend one with another; and their priests shall contend one with another, and they shall teach with their learning, and deny the Holy Ghost, which giveth utterance.
And they deny the power of God, the Holy One of Israel; and they say unto the people: Hearken unto us, and hear ye our precept; for behold there is no God today, for the Lord and the Redeemer hath done his work, and he hath given his power unto men; Behold, hearken ye unto my precept; if they shall say there is a miracle wrought by the hand of the Lord, believe it not; for this day he is not a God of miracles; he hath done his work.
2 Nephi 28:3-6

The mainstream interpretation of this scripture makes it difficult to identify these last days church's that are "built up, and not unto The Lord."

As LDS we read this and excuse ourselves and cast the blame on every religion but the one for whom the warning is written for: the LDS church. Who is being warned? Why would Nephi warn churches who will never read the book? Just so we can point the finger of accusation and pat ourselves on the back? 

This post will deal primarily with verse 6 and the idea of miracles, to see if we can get a better understanding of that term so that we can see if we are guilty as charged by Nephi, or if we can just go on singing "all is well, all is well". 

The primary question is does our church say:
"Behold, hearken ye unto my precept; if they shall say there is a miracle wrought by the hand of the Lord, believe it not; for this day he is not a God of miracles; he hath done his work."

Let's break it down:
1. Behold, hearken ye unto my precept;
2.  if they shall say there is a miracle wrought by the hand of the Lord, believe it not; 
(The "they" in this line is unnamed, it appears it is some unnamed persons who come among the church and "say there is a miracle wrought by the hand of The Lord". Why would someone come and tell the church that The Lord has performed a miracle, and why would the leaders of these false churches tell its people to "believe it not? Hopefully this will become clear as we move forward. 
3. for this day he is not a God of miracles; 
4. he hath done his work.

These are all interrelated, with the primary assertion that these last days churches built up to get gain will tell the people to hearken unto their precept. This is fulfilled by our church in so many ways, but the easy one, is that we follow "current doctrine" out of a handbook, instead of the pure gospel and doctrine of Christ as found in the Book of Mormon, the most correct book on the earth, which Joseph remarked, that a man will get nearer to God by abiding by its precepts than any other book. 

Miracles. Our church believes in miracles, I can hear them say, "We have miracles all the time!" And in a way I agree. Miracles happen. The question is, how does the most correct book define and describe miracles? Does it describe miracles simply as miraculous events, or something else? Before we turn to the Book of. Mormon, Let's look at an interesting and perhaps confusing quote by Jesus:

22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?
23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.
Matthew 7:22-23

Wow! People come to The Lord who have worked miracles in His name, why would God profess to not "know them" and command them to depart? Is it because these people were really wicked people and they somehow faked some miracles or perhaps stole Gods power. Growing up in the church this was how I understood other church's healing's to be be judged by God at the last day. Sure they performed miracles but they did so illegitimately, but in the end God will show them we had the priesthood and they did not, and he will cast them off. 

Let's assume we know nothing about the New Testament and the miracles Jesus performed in those accounts. If we could get that out of our minds for a few minutes and we take a look at this "most correct book", maybe we can find a new idea about "miracles". Maybe The Lord is telling us that for a miracle to be counted as qualifying of The Lord approval, it is a different kind of miracle than we typically think of. 

Here is Ammon speaking to the King:
13 Now Ammon said unto him: I can assuredly tell thee, O king, of a man that can translate the records; for he has wherewith that he can look, and translate all records that are of ancient date; and it is a gift from God. And the things are called interpreters, and no man can look in them except he be commanded, lest he should look for that he ought not and he should perish. And whosoever is commanded to look in them, the same is called seer.

14 And behold, the king of the people who are in the land of Zarahemla is the man that is commanded to do these things, and who has this high gift from God.

15 And the king said that a seer is greater than a prophet.

16 And Ammon said that a seer is a revelator and a prophet also; and a gift which is greater can no man have, except he should possess the power of God, which no man can; yet a man may have great power given him from God.

(As an aside, this power of God's is His. No man can possess it, own it or have a monopoly on its distribution. We can have power given us to use, but it's God's Power and it is therefore it is through an association with the Powers of Heaven or God that man is given power. It is not something man just has by virtue of having priesthood confirmed upon us by other men. And there is not some guarantee a man will always have it. It is perishable because this priesthood is from God. He still ministers to those of sound mind and it is those to whom. He grants holiness and power.)

But a seer can know of things which are past, and also of things which are to come, and by them shall all things be revealed, or, rather, shall secret things be made manifest, and hidden things shall come to light, and things which are not known shall be made known by them, and also things shall be made known by them which otherwise could not be known.
Thus God has provided a means that man, through faith, might work MIGHTY MIRACLES therefore he becometh a great benefit to his fellow beings.
O how marvelous are the works of the Lord, and how long doth he suffer with his people; yea, and how blind and impenetrable are the understandings of the children of men; for they will not seek wisdom, neither do they desire that she should rule over them!
Mosiah 8:13-20

According to this passage, miracles are "unfolding mysteries" through the "marvelous works" which he then equates with seeking wisdom and not only seeking her, but allowing her to rule over them!! This then is a different "miracle" or work indeed. 

Also miracles are:
--things which are past, 
--and also of things which are to come
--by them shall all things be revealed
--shall secret things be made manifest
--hidden things shall come to light
--things which are not known shall be made known by them
--things shall be made known by them which otherwise could not be known.


No "healing". No raising the dead. These miracles seem to have another function outside the physical realm in which we find ourselves. These miracles are all about having knowledge and things revealed to us, so that we can see and hear and understand, and then God is hoping, we will act. Why "works"? Why The reference to Wisdom? Who is she? Would it be a miracle in our day, in the LDS church to find her and have her rule over us? Hmm... A miracle indeed. 

6 And as sure as the Lord liveth, so sure as many as believed, or as many as were brought to the knowledge of the truth, through the preaching of Ammon and his brethren, according to the spirit of revelation and of prophecy, and the power of God working miracles in them--yea, I say unto you, as the Lord liveth, as many of the Lamanites as believed in their preaching, and were converted unto the Lord, never did fall away.
Alma 23:6

Here the miracle is receiving knowledge, by "God working miracles IN them, and this is then compared to being "converted unto The Lord." How does working miracles "in" them, receiving knowledge of things past present and future, and being converted unto The Lord relate? Why is that a miracle? Who is involved and directly responsible? Is this something another man can give you? Is this miracle related to having God perform or press something "in" your flesh like the Brother of Jared account?

12 Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things; yea, behold, many mighty miracles we have wrought in this land, for which we will praise his name forever.

Why does Ammon "do" all things? What does that mean? Is that a miracle? Is Ammon's example here, exactly how someone gets power from God? By humility. and not claiming to be great, but praising God? 

13 Behold, how many thousands of our brethren has he loosed from the pains of hell; and they are brought to sing redeeming love, and this because of the power of his word which is in us, therefore have we not great reason to rejoice?

14 Yea, we have reason to praise him forever, for he is the Most High God, and has loosed our brethren from the chains of hell.

15 Yea, they were encircled about with everlasting darkness and destruction; but behold, he has brought them into his everlasting light, yea, into everlasting salvation; and they are encircled about with the matchless bounty of his love; yea, and we have been instruments in his hands of doing this great and marvelous work.

16 Therefore, let us glory, yea, we will glory in the Lord; yea, we will rejoice, for our joy is full; yea, we will praise our God forever. Behold, who can glory too much in the Lord? Yea, who can say too much of his great power, and of his mercy, and of his long-suffering towards the children of men? Behold, I say unto you, I cannot say the smallest part which I feel.
Alma 26:12-16

Here we come to the whole purpose and divine law of miracles and what purpose they serve in Gods great plan. 

--"he has brought them into his everlasting light, yea, into everlasting salvation; 
--and they are encircled about with the matchless bounty of his love"
--"how many thousands of our brethren has he loosed from the pains of hell;"
--"and they are brought to sing redeeming love"
--"and this because of the power of his word which is in us"

The great miracle here is salvation. Salvation that comes from the divine light of Gods very Person and Presence. "Being brought into His everlasting light is to be brought into Gods very Presence; to see Him face to face! Encircled in His arms! Can you imagine? Loosed from the pains of hell! Singing redeeming love! Having the Power of His Word "in" us. Here we have this idea of "in" idea again. What is happening here?

What do we do with instruments? We perform them. How can we allow God to "perform" with, in and through us? Like Ammon said, "we have been instruments in his hands of doing this great and marvelous work."

What did Ammon do? I mean I can hear your doubts already: "I don't think that all that actually means to see God face to face. We don't need to do that until the next life!"

Let's look at the account to see exactly what Ammon did:

6 Now, this was what Ammon desired, for he knew that king Lamoni was under the power of God; he knew that the dark veil of unbelief was being cast away from his mind, and the light which did light up his mind, which was the light of the glory of God, which was a marvelous light of his goodness--yea, this light had infused such joy into his soul, the cloud of darkness having been dispelled, and that the light of everlasting life was lit up in his soul, yea, he knew that this had overcome his natural frame, and he was carried away in God--
Alma 19:6

This is the same language of light, even marvelous light of His goodness infusing Lamoni's soul with joy. What does that look like? How do I get some of that? Why light? Is this a sparkly shiny manifestation? Or is this light and truth, or in other words, knowledge being given Lamoni? Or as mentioned earlier, is this knowledge of mysteries, past present and future?

Joseph said, "A man cannot be saved in ignorance", and "a man is saved no faster than he can get knowledge". It's not just a sparkly experience. It is light, it is truth, it is knowledge that is conveyed to the mind of Lamoni here. The content matters! What the spirit is saying to you is one way how you know whether the message is true or whether you are being deceived. Lamoni gets filled with saving knowledge and that infuses his soul with joy!  

"And it came to pass that he arose, according to the words of Ammon; and as he arose, he stretched forth his hand unto the woman, and said: Blessed be the name of God, and blessed art thou. For as sure as thou livest, behold, I have seen my Redeemer; and he shall come forth, and be born of a woman, and he shall redeem all mankind who believe on his name. Now, when he had said these words, his heart was swollen within him, and he sunk again with joy; and the queen also sunk down, being overpowered by the Spirit. ,
Alma 19:12-13

"I have seen my Redeemer"

This is face to face. This is the light of Gods countenance shining upon Lamoni and his house and redeeming them all from the fall. Ammon introduced them to these things and they found salvation in his message by receiving the message and then doing what Ammon invited them to do, and that is ride the chariot up the fiery conduit into the Presence of God!  Here is another example of the definition of salvation in the most correct book. This is the "precept" of the book which is required of us to perform or abide by in order to remove the condemnation.  And we just aren't good enough. But it is a come as you are party, and if you'll come to Him He will clean you up. And if you keep returning He will, grace for grace, bring you along to where and what you need to be. 


[The Queen] arose and stood upon her feet, and cried with a loud voice, saying: O blessed Jesus, who has saved me from an awful hell! O blessed God, have mercy on this people! And when she had said this, she clasped her hands, being filled with joy, speaking many words which were not understood; 
Alma 19:29-30

This is what those who have this experience do: they sing the song of redeeming love! Can you feel to sing this song? If you have in the past, can you feel to do so now? Is this a one off event?

34 And behold, many did declare unto the people that they had seen angels and had conversed with them; and thus they had told them things of God, and of his righteousness.
Alma 19:34

These are the things you are going to have to encounter and become one with if you want to get closer to God. Adam waits for "messengers from Father", because that ministry by holy beings is necessary to give you the knowledge you need. 

Let's go to the lords ministry in Bountiful:

25 And it came to pass that Jesus blessed them as they did pray unto him; and his countenance did smile upon them, and the light of his countenance did shine upon them, and behold they were as white as the countenance and also the garments of Jesus; and behold the whiteness thereof did exceed all the whiteness, yea, even there could be nothing upon earth so white as the whiteness thereof.
3 Nephi 19:25

30 And when Jesus had spoken these words he came again unto his disciples; and behold they did pray steadfastly, without ceasing, unto him; and he did smile upon them again; and behold they were white, even as Jesus.
3 Nephi 19:30

32 And tongue cannot speak the words which he prayed, neither can be written by man the words which he prayed.

33 And the multitude did hear and do bear record; and their hearts were open and they did understand in their hearts the words which he prayed.

34 Nevertheless, so great and marvelous were the words which he prayed that they cannot be written, neither can they be uttered by man.

35 And it came to pass that when Jesus had made an end of praying he came again to the disciples, and said unto them: So great faith have I never seen among all the Jews; wherefore I could not show unto them so great miracles, because of their unbelief.

36 Verily I say unto you, there are none of them that have seen so great things as ye have seen; neither have they heard so great things as ye have heard.
3 Nephi 19:31-36

Here again we have the same language as Ammon and King Lamoni. And we have even more clarification, because Jesus a smiles upon them and they become white as He is white! 

Christ could not show those in Jerusalem the miracles He showed the Nephites! What miracles? Because He showed the Jews healing and raising dead etc. Right? So what miracles does Christ lament he could not show the. Jews? Yes, He could not show them the saving miracles. The "Mighty" miracles. These words mean things. They are things. And there is a big difference between healing someone who is sick and redeeming them from the fall. Even non-Christians heal people! And surely Christians, including the Mormons heal by faith. This miracle though is one only heavenly beings and The Lord are able to perform! 

Let's take a look at the three disciples miracles:

5 And there were great and marvelous works wrought by the disciples of Jesus, insomuch that they did heal the sick, and raise the dead, and cause the lame to walk, and the blind to receive their sight, and the deaf to hear; and all manner of miracles did they work among the children of men; and in nothing did they work miracles save it were in the name of Jesus.
4 Nephi 1:5

Finally! Some real New Testament "Jesus miracles"! Or are they?

Heal the sick
Blind to see
Deaf to hear
"Dead" to rise

These are the same things which Lamoni and his household, the Nephites with Christ, and all who receive this kind of salvation receive. Are we not all sick, blind, deaf and dead? I hope that these miracles are both temporal and spiritual, but I desire the spiritual more than the physical. Mankind has power given them to exercise faith to physically heal and even raise people from the dead. And many of those that do these kinds of miracles are going to be denied entrance by the Holy One of Israel who is the gatekeeper. Remember the scripture of Christ that He will command them who do these miracles to depart! Why? Is it because the miracles that those who know Him will perform are of a spiritual and saving nature? What is Gods work and glory? Yes, to bring men to pass Immortality and Eternal Life! So wouldn't His Mighty Miracles also do the same?

Let's return to the record to see if these healing's of sick, deaf, blind and dead are miraculous healing's or something else. 

13 But wickedness did prevail upon the face of the whole land, insomuch that the Lord did take away his beloved disciples, (these are the three who tarried, the same referenced in the above scripture about healing) and the work of miracles and of healing did cease because of the iniquity of the people.

14 And there were no gifts from the Lord, and the Holy Ghost did not come upon any, because of their wickedness and unbelief.

15 And I, being fifteen years of age and being somewhat of a sober mind, therefore I was visited of the Lord, and tasted and knew of the goodness of Jesus."
Mormon 1:13-15. 

Verse 15 clarifies that the three disciples healing of blind, deaf and sick was spiritual in nature. For they come and minister to Mormon and he "tasted and knew of the goodness of Jesus."  He too entered the Divine Presence and was redeemed from the fall thereby. And all this in the context of despite the three being taken and no more miracles being wrought, they still came to Mormon and he still was redeemed!!

15 And now, O all ye that have imagined up unto yourselves a god who can do no miracles, I would ask of you, have all these things passed, of which I have spoken? Has the end come yet? Behold I say unto you, Nay; and God has not ceased to be a God of miracles.

Have all the Powers of Heaven "passed"? Are They no longer? The answer is a resounding, "NAY!" For God has not ceased to be a God of miracles. What miracle? God has not ceased bringing men into His Presence to redeem them! He continues still! Will you behold The Lord?

18 And who shall say that Jesus Christ did not do many mighty miracles? And there were many mighty miracles wrought by the hands of the apostles.

19 And if there were miracles wrought then, why has God ceased to be a God of miracles and yet be an unchangeable Being? And behold, I say unto you he changeth not; if so he would cease to be God; and he ceaseth not to be God, and is a God of miracles.

20 And the reason why he ceaseth to do miracles among the children of men is because that they dwindle in unbelief, and depart from the right way, and know not the God in whom they should trust.

God will come to you. He has not ceased to perform this miracle of salvation and redemption! If so, it is because of our own unbelief or false notions of who God is. It is because we seek for the miracles that will get us cast off, and all the while we ignore His miraculous work and a wonder! It truly is miracle to save even one of us. 

And how does it begin? We see how to begin a few verses later: 

23 And he that believeth and is baptized shall be saved, but he that believeth not shall be damned;

24 And these signs shall follow them that believe--in my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; they shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick and they shall recover;

25 And whosoever shall believe in my name, doubting nothing, unto him will I confirm all my words, even unto the ends of the earth.

26 And now, behold, who can stand against the works of the Lord? Who can deny his sayings? Who will rise up against the almighty power of the Lord? Who will despise the works of the Lord? Who will despise the children of Christ? Behold, all ye who are despisers of the works of the Lord, for ye shall wonder and perish.

27 O then despise not, and wonder not, but hearken unto the words of the Lord, and ask the Father in the name of Jesus for what things soever ye shall stand in need. Doubt not, but be believing, and begin as in times of old, and come unto the Lord with all your heart, and work out your own salvation with fear and trembling before him.

28 Be wise in the days of your probation; strip yourselves of all uncleanness; ask not, that ye may consume it on your lusts, but ask with a firmness unshaken, that ye will yield to no temptation, but that ye will serve the true and living God.

29 See that ye are not baptized unworthily; see that ye partake not of the sacrament of Christ unworthily; but see that ye do all things in worthiness, and do it in the name of Jesus Christ, the Son of the living God; and if ye do this, and endure to the end, ye will in nowise be cast out.
Mormon 9:15-29 

Miracles. The doctrine of Christ. Tied together. It is one work compounded in one and God is going to fulfill His word and His work. The question is, will you get out of bed with the whore? Will you arise and leave your false religious beliefs and false beliefs of God behind? Ask Jesus for whatsoever "things" ye lack yet. Ask with faith, not to consume it on your lusts, not to be able to tell some sycophant a fascinating experience or manifestation. Don't do that! Get The Lord to press into your own hand 20 stones. Do that!  Look at the following verses after Christ commands those who perform certain miracles but "knew Him not":

"Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock:
And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock."
Matthew 7:24-25

Founded on a rock. 16 stones taken up to the mountain... And the wise man builds his house upon a rock! Coincidence?

Finally, here is how Christ can minister and perform His great miracle:

And thus the flesh becoming subject to the Spirit, or the Son to the Father, being one God, suffereth temptation, and yieldeth not to the temptation, but suffereth himself to be mocked, and scourged, and cast out, and disowned by his people.
And after all this, after working many mighty miracles among the children of men, he shall be led, yea, even as Isaiah said, as a sheep before the shearer is dumb, so he opened not his mouth.
Yea, even so he shall be led, crucified, and slain, the flesh becoming subject even unto death, the will of the Son being swallowed up in the will of the Father.
And thus God breaketh the bands of death, having gained the victory over death; giving the Son power to make intercession for the children of men--
Having ascended into heaven, having the bowels of mercy; being filled with compassion towards the children of men; standing betwixt them and justice; having broken the bands of death, taken upon himself their iniquity and their transgressions, having redeemed them, and satisfied the demands of justice.

"after working many mighty miracles among the children of men"
Hopefully you have a better understanding of this phrase. For while He certainly performed healing's and raising the dead, these were signs and symbols of His real miracle: the atonement and doing all He did and still does for the redemption of mankind. His ministry and miracles continue still will you be a partaker?

Here is Christ about His thoughts on those who would deny Him His personal, face to face ministry among mankind:

6 Yea, wo unto him that shall deny the revelations of the Lord, and that shall say the Lord no longer worketh by revelation, or by prophecy, or by gifts, or by tongues, or by healings, or by the power of the Holy Ghost!

7 Yea, and wo unto him that shall say at that day, to get gain, that there can be no miracle wrought by Jesus Christ; for he that doeth this shall become like unto the son of perdition, for whom there was no mercy, according to the word of Christ!
3 Nephi 29:6-7

To all those who deny Christ can or must needs come minister to us in the flesh, Yes, now, To you, To me, In the flesh, Face to face. To all those who say we don't need to see Christ in this life. We just need ordinances in the temple and odds are we'll be exalted. To all those who preach a gospel of procrastination and hesitate or delay your repentance for another day because some leader hasn't told you this is important, and that you should or need to do it, or because you doubt or fear or just don't know where to start, or you claim, "God doesn't speak to me". Yea, Wo unto all who shall say that there can be no miracle wrought by Christ, even the miracle of Him coming and redeeming you from the fall because you also know these things and can stand in His Presence while in the flesh; while in this mortality. Wo unto to you shepherds for going not in and hindering those who would enter in! 

God is not dead, nor does He sleep! The bells toll for the dead prophets and heaven weeps and the devil laughs, because so many fall for the sophistry and misdirection. He is not done with His work! He has not given His power to men. He is a God of miracles and I know that because I know how much of a miracle it is for Him to save me. Only He can do it. He is personally involved in doing so. That's the only way. Don't allow some precept of men and the churches they've built up, to replace your relationship meant to be between you and God directly. His arms are extended still. Will he deny Him further?

"Repent, and come unto me", saith The Lord. 

For if you'll repent, the miracle He will perform will include: 

--unfolding mysteries" through the "marvelous works"
--seeking wisdom and not only seeking her, but allowing her to rule over you. This 
We shall see and know:
--things which are past, 
--and also of things which are to come
--by them shall all things be revealed
--shall secret things be made manifest
--hidden things shall come to light
--things which are not known shall be made known by them
--things shall be made known by them which otherwise could not be known.
And
-- receive knowledge
--have God working miracles IN you 
--be "converted unto The Lord
--in his strength do all things
--be brought into his everlasting light
--into everlasting salvation
--be encircled about with the matchless bounty of his love
--be loosed from the pains of hell
--be brought to sing redeeming love
--receive the power of his word which is in us
--have the dark veil of unbelief cast away from your mind
-- have the light, light up your mind, which was the light of the glory of God, which           was a marvelous light of his goodness
--yea, have this light infuse such joy into your soul
--have the cloud of darkness having been dispelled
--have the light of everlasting life lit up in your soul
--to be overcome in your natural frame
--to be carried away in God--
-- to see angels and converse with them; 
-- be told them things of God, and of his righteousness by these angels
-- to have Jesus bless you as you pray unto him
-- to have his countenance smile upon you 
--have the light of his countenance shine upon you 
--to be as white as the countenance and also the garments of Jesus, even a whiteness that does exceed all the whiteness, yea, even there is nothing upon earth so white as the whiteness thereof
--Heal the sick in you 
--make the Blind in you to see
-- and the Deaf in you to hear
-- and the "Dead" in you to rise, be a flame on earth again
-- to have Him smile upon you again
-- to be white again, even as Jesus.
-- to have Christ pray words that tongue cannot speak, neither can be written by man the words
-- to hear and bear record; and have your heart open and understand in your heart the words spoken by Him
-- to be shown greater miracles
-- to see so great things and to hear so great things 
--to taste and know of the goodness of Jesus 
--speak with new tongues
-- to take up serpents
-- to drink any deadly thing and it shall not hurt you 
--they shall lay hands on the sick and they shall recover;
-- to be counted as one who shall believe in my name, doubting nothing, unto him will I confirm all my words, even unto the ends of the earth.
-- to have the rain descend, and the floods come, and the winds blow, and beat upon your house; and have it fall  not: for it is founded upon a rock
--to be able to declare:
"I have seen my Redeemer!"

Now that would be a miracle indeed!!

Monday, January 26, 2015

Bishops "court"

January 22, 2015

The Bishop called again yesterday (the next day after his first call) and set up a meeting for last night at 7:45. Wow! That was quick. So we went. 

He asked me many of the same questions as he had on the phone the day before. 
Bishop: how did you come to the writings of this man Denver Snuffer and when? When did you begin to meet in this group? How often do you meet? Do you partake of the sacrament? 

Me: well, Denver really had nothing to do with my approach to God in the beginning. I came across a talk by one of the a Quorum of the Twelve, Bruce R. Mckonkie, called the 10 blessings of the priesthood. The last three I believe are, to be sealed up unto eternal life, to have ones calling and election made sure, and to approach the throne of grace and see and speak to God face to face. This was a prophet seer and Revelator, remember! Later, I came across Abraham 1:2-4:

2 And, finding there was greater happiness and peace and rest for me, I sought for the blessings of the fathers, and the right whereunto I should be ordained to administer the same; having been myself a follower of righteousness, desiring also to be one who possessed great knowledge, and to be a greater follower of righteousness, and to possess a greater knowledge, and to be a father of many nations, a prince of peace, and desiring to receive instructions, and to keep the commandments of God, I became a rightful heir, a High Priest, holding the right belonging to the fathers.

3 It was conferred upon me from the fathers; it came down from the fathers, from the beginning of time, yea, even from the beginning, or before the foundation of the earth, down to the present time, even the right of the firstborn, or the first man, who is Adam, or first father, through the fathers unto me.

4 I sought for mine appointment unto the Priesthood according to the appointment of God unto the fathers concerning the seed.
Abraham 1:2-4

I paraphrased the above scripture, and told the bishopric that I too was a follower of righteousness, and desiring to be a greater follower as Bruce R. had spoken of, and now Abraham was saying the same thing and more, I decided that if God were no respecter of persons, I too might do as James directs (James 1:5) and ask God for greater light and truth concerning the fathers and the rights of the priesthood of the fathers from Adam down. 

I also quoted Ether 3:13:
Because thou knowest these things ye are redeemed from the fall; therefore ye are brought back into my presence; therefore I show myself unto you.

What is happening here? I asked. How is it that the Brother of Jared is redeemed from to he fall? Well, the scripture is clear, he is redeemed from the fall when he enters into the Presence of Christ! This is the same thing that Bruce R. and Abraham, and Joseph are all telling me! Maybe there is something here I need to pay attention to! 

Then, upon reading the lectures on faith I realized that to obtain these blessings I must sacrifice everything. All I had and all I was and am, I must be willing to offer up. How could I think to be saved in the Kingdom of Heaven with those saints that had offered their all, their lives, their possessions, they were sawn asunder and crucified upside down; how could I think to be comfortable or saved if I had not offered the same offering and sacrifice? 

I mean, what was it Abraham was sacrificing when he took Isaac up the mountain to  kill him? Sure it was his son, his birthright son, but Abraham was also offering up the very blessings and covenant that he had just received from God a short time earlier! Abraham was sacrificing his very salvation and exalted promises when he offered up Isaac, because how do you have posterity as the sands of the sea if you murder the only birthright son? So coming upon all of this material in the scriptures, because this was in 2005, and I wouldn't come across the writings if this man Denver Snuffer for another 5-6 YEARS! I didn't read his first book until either late 2010 or 2011. I was lost in all this stuff, all alone until like a ray of light someone showed me Denver's first book, The Second Comforter Conversing with The Lord Through the Veil, and when I got that it was very helpful (huge understatement!) in sorting some things out and correcting some things I was doing that was preventing me from going any higher. 

So I just continued in this space of time before I came across Denver's writings, seeking God. I asked for the same manifestation that Joseph, Nephi, Abraham and Mahonri received, and Bruce R. promised. And I offered up all I had to The Lord. And you know, I don't know if I thought He'd really take it, but I offered it all and He took me up on the offer. At the time I was living in Camelot (that's what I called it) I had a huge house worth $700,000, half paid off, I had all the trappings, I mean I had a boat, and a classic 67 Camaro, a 40' 5th wheel, filled with toys and quads and motorcycles, a cabin on 25 acres, I had standing in the community and in the ward, I was living in Camelot! I was on top of the world. And I offered it all up. And in His Mercy, He took it all, and it was and is all worth it and I'd do it all again to know The Lord, and I do know The Lord, because He has come to me and He has sent His angels, and I too can testify that I KNOW Joseph saw what he saw because I have had my own first vision experience and I have seen and therefore know some things as a result of that. But that doesn't really make me so special as you might think, and I mean that! We all should have a first person witness of what Joseph saw. We all should be witnesses to that, and we all can be. I am no one special and I still suck, but The Lord will talk to you guys if you will make the attempt to get to know him, but you know, if people ask about going on this path, I discourage them from do so, because it will require all of you and once you begin you can't go back, so if you're going to proceed then be ready to go all the way, and you've got to be willing to give up what The Lord requires of you. 

So I've given it all up and I will give whatever The Lord requires, even if you cast people like me away, if I have to choose then I choose The Lord. If Joseph were here today I'm not even sure he would be welcome. Look, you think I'm crazy and hearing voices and talking with God and seeing angels, but isn't that what Joseph did too? Why aren't we seeking that? I remember one story about Joseph getting a fistful size piece of bread and a cup of wine each, and taking the sacrament with some guys and then he laid down on his back and told them to lay their heads on his arms, and they all looked up into Heaven and Joseph called down angels! Who doesn't want that? We should all be doing that. Let's do that together. (I nodded to the bishopric inviting them to partake of the sacrament with me; they just stared at me like I was crazy!) You see, the fruit is the test. How do you know the truth of things unless there is a test?

When The Lord began to instruct me using the scriptures to be baptized and partake of the sacrament, I resisted. I refused for some time to believe I should proceed and I required more information from Him. I fasted and prayed for months to know His will. I told Him how could I do such things without the key holder? I grew up in the church you know. I knew I wasn't supposed to do such things, heck, they won't even let families do it at family reunions, although they used to, and they used to do sacrament twice on Sundays, so The Lord pointed out it was a policy not HIS doctrine. How could I know I asked? "You have My word before you, will you wrest it to your own destruction?" The Lord has a way with words ya know? 

What would you all do? The Lord asked me, "are you going to obey men or Me?" What would you do? I told The Lord I lacked authority to perform the ordinances, and The Lord, in His own voice declared to me from Heaven giving me authority and Power to baptize and to bless and administer the sacrament.
 (See JST Genesis 14: 28: "It being after the order of the Son of God; which order came, NOT BY MAN, nor the will of man; neither by father nor mother; neither by beginning of days nor end of years; but of God;        
29 And it was delivered unto men by the calling of his own voice, according to his own will, unto as many as believed on his name. JST, Genesis 14:28-29.

 So this cannot be given from one man to another "although it may be conferred upon them it is true", it cannot come and does not come with any power at least, until one hears it from Gods own voice to the individual.

This is a private worship. This is not public. I have never criticized the church publicly. And if I have taken note of problems in the leadership or institution in private, it is because I believe it useful to see things as they really are so that I don't misplace my trust and begin to believe again that God has given his power to man which the most correct book condemns.

"5 And they deny the power of God, the Holy One of Israel; and they say unto the people: Hearken unto us, and hear ye our precept; for behold there is no God today, for the Lord and the Redeemer hath done his work, and HE HATH GIVEN HIS POWER TO MEN"; 2 Nephi 28:5, emphasis mine. 

I do not question your keys and authority, nor do I question the church's. Go your way in peace and exercise your authority, that is a public service and duty and I do not question you or the church in how or what way you perform things, but I'm pleading with you to please leave me alone and let me go my way in peace, and worship God privately according to the dictates of my own conscience. When. Joseph gave that he was referencing action to cast out a man who "erred in doctrine". 

Joseph said, when a brother Brown was being threatened with excommunication for his error in doctrine: 

"I did not like the old man being called up for erring in doctrine. It looks too much like the Methodist, and not like the Latter-day Saints. Methodists have creeds which a man must believe or be asked out of their church. I want the liberty of thinking and believing as I please. It feels so good not to be trammeled. It does not prove that a man is not a good man because he errs in doctrine."  

Here Joseph equates being allowed to remain in full fellowship with "being a good man", not according to "erring in doctrine".  You can see the similarities with this story and Article of Faith 11:

"We claim the privilege of worshipping the Almighty God according to the dictates of our own conscience, and allow all men the same privilege. Let them worship how where or what they may."

Bishop, you don't have to take any action against me. You don't have to listen to some higher-up telling you you must take action. I am no threat to you or your keys or the church. I am an innocent man and am worthy to hold a temple recommend. Let me worship in private with the authority given me, and I will let you exercise you public keys to the ward. We don't need to be at odds. I don't want to nor have I ever fought the church. I want to be a Mormon and seek the face of God privately. 

We still believe the idea that the Book of Mormon is the most correct book and a man will get nearer to God by abiding by its precepts than any other. Joseph also said the nearer a man is to God, the clearer are his views and perceptions. So if obeying the precepts are what brings me closer to God and being closer to God gives me clarity, then I am going to obey the truest books precepts. 

So after The Lord gave me authority to perform ordinances, The Lord told me to test the fruits of doing them according to Alma 32. (See Alma 32) And what's the test of Alma 32? It's to plant the seed or to do something, and then watch it to see if it grows, or expands the soul, and whatsoever expands the soul is good. So I tried the word of God to see if there was fruit, or if my soul expanded upon performing the ordinances, and I can tell you from first hand experience that my soul has expanded because of my following my Lord and Savior down into the waters of baptism, and then partaking of the sacrament with bread and wine as the scriptures outline with specificity to do. The scriptures say, "by their fruits shall ye know them", and the fruit of following the doctrine of Christ and performing His ordinances as He ordained them and doing them "oft" as He commanded, (see Moroni 6:6) has born wonderful fruit. 

So I ask again, please let me go my way in peace and worship God in a private transaction between myself and The Lord, and I will continuer to not challenge yours or the church's keys and authority to officiate publicly. I do not see these as contradictory. One is public, the other is private. Please have mercy on me and just let me go. I expect you to allow me a temple re come d and full fellowship. I can answer the temple recommend questions with a clear conscience before God. 

So the question is, can the church just let people pursue Christ by following the precepts of the most correct book, or will they cast them all out? I'm willing to see the foibles of men and still sustain them, fulfill callings, pay tithing, and serve when I can within the church. Are men perfect? All would agree no. So why do we expect them to never lead us astray? Of course they could make mistakes, but that doesn't really bother me, because my faith is in Christ, and not men. I can remain faithful to the church, pursue God privately, why can't the church allow this? I am no threat to yours or the church's authority. I have no desire to lead or be promoted up the ladder of leadership. I just want to be a Mormon and pursue God as outlined in the scripture, and since the church is not teaching what the scriptures teach, why are they bothered if I pursue those things privately, in what are for all intents and purposes, different ordinances completely, than what I am offered within the church? I am not complaining they are doing it differently than scripture, but I do claim the right to pursue Him according to scripture even if the church isn't. That does not make me apostate. 

The Bishop then read article of faith 5 and 6 and told me the church believes these are the correct way to see authority. 

I agreed, and mentioned that Paul was called and ordained by God outside the then existing twelve apostles and so if we are following that model, we should expect for apostles to arise directly under Gods hand outside the quorum of twelve today. If you want to follow that model, I completely agree, but you cannot use it to say God can't do his own work, whenever He wants to, with whomever He wants to. 

As for laying in of hands, whose hands? What does it mean to be called of God? Have you been called of God? By prophecy? Who would be more "by those who are in authority" then angels and God Himself? So if you want to say that's the law of the church, I agree, but let's not say "called of God", and then you quote me some man who ordained you with no mention of God or prophecy or laying on of hands by angels like Joseph was. Those are two different things. 

The Bishop said, "I understand what you're saying, but that is not the current doctrine of the church. You must get in alignment with the current doctrine or we will have to escalate action against you."  

I replied, so the current doctrine isn't scriptural? Shouldn't we go by the "most correct book"? 

Bishop: "we don't go by what is in the scriptures, we go by what is in the current doctrine of the church."

Me: you mean the handbook? Of which I don't have and haven't read? 

Then they invited us out of the room for them to deliberate. This was the first moment we realized we had been on trial the whole time! No one mentioned they were questioning us to make some judgement on us, we had simply been asked in to "talk". 

We returned and they handed down the verdict:

"Informal probation, no sacrament (private or public), no priesthood functioning (private or public), no speaking up in meetings, and he asked for my temple recommend. 

I said, "I do not consent to giving you my recommend. I am worthy to hold it, correct?" And the Bishop nodded yes. "So I cannot give it to you as you are asking for it unjustly, and I am an innocent man, worthy before God and you to hold it, so I cannot in good conscience give it to you"

"As to my priesthood, D&C 121 says, 'the rights of the priesthood are inseparably connected to the Powers of Heaven.' As recent as right before this meeting The Lord told me, 'your connection to Heaven will not be affected in this meeting', so you cannot really take away something that you are not involved in anyway. That priesthood I hold is inseparably connected to God, and you are not a party to that, so I will be keeping my priesthood thank you. 

I told you before in our phone conversation and again tonight that I was in a 40 sacrament fast, and to stop would require me to break covenants with God. So if you are requiring me to chose between God and your judgement, then I will follow God. I will abstain in the public meetings as you request, but privately I will continue to do as God directs."

He replied as to me not giving him my recommend: "this isn't about your worthiness to hold a recommend. It's about you doing things that are not in line with the current church doctrine."

I said, "you mean the handbook? Because I'm simply following the scriptures, and I have done so while remaining in honor to the church and my covenants therein. This is a private matter between me and God."

He said, "you must conform to the current church doctrine not what's in the scriptures, or we will escalate this to a disciplinary court, well, that's a negative way to say it, it's really more of a council of love, because we love you to death. We just love your family! (This was the second time I had ever met with him! It was "love feigned", because love never was between us. We simply don't know each other)

He said they would give me two weeks to think it over and then they wanted to meet again. 

I agreed cheerfully, and said, "we don't need two weeks, I am following The Lord, but anytime you want to talk I'd be happy to do so"

My Bishop Called...

January 20, 2015

Bishop just called me out of the blue, and asked me:

1. Are you meeting with people every Tuesday in some sort of group to study?

Me: "not really. There is no organized meeting or group. I am studying and seeking God all day every day. All I do in any if my spare time, is read and study and discuss Gods word. It is a constant part of my life. So, Yes, people call and ask to come over, and it always turns into a discussion of the gospel of Christ because that's what I'm all about: The Gospel of Christ. It's usually different people and there is no organized meeting or group or even any kind of set time. Many times I end up studying alone or with my family. Sometimes a group of people shows up. Sometimes it's me and one other. So am I meeting with others? Yes. Is it some organized meeting or 'every Tuesday' kind of meeting? No. 

2. Bishop: How often would you say you meet?

Me: I'm seeking The Lord 24/7. It's an everyday, all the time kind of thing for me. There really isn't a spare moment when I'm not pursuing the gospel, meaning the voice of God and angels speaking to me, and studying the words of Joseph and the scriptures to learn more. I'd say I meet with people 4 or 5 days a week. But like I said, it's not organized. It's just my friends and family talking about the gospel and doctrine of Christ. Is that a problem?

3. Bishop: Have you ever in the past, or are you currently partaking of the sacrament at any of these meetings, or are you studying the writings of a man named Denver Snuffer?

Me: "I believe that the church still believes the statement of Joseph Smith, 'that the Book of Mormon is the most correct book, and a man will get nearer to God by abiding by its precepts than any other book.' Notice this does not say it's the most correct book, therefore we must read it, rather it says we must 'abide by its precepts.' Another statement by Joseph is, 'the nearer a man is to God, the clearer are his perceptions and the greater his understandings'. I take these statements seriously and I have acted in faith to attempt to obtain these blessings. 3 Nephi is clear: we are to follow the doctrine of Christ and to partake of the sacrament 'oft'. The reason to partake oft, is to get closer to God. (See 3 Nephi 18;Moroni 6:6) The reason to get closer to God is to have clearer perceptions. Most of my life I thought the "spirit" was the spirit, and that having it, secured for me clear and correct answers just because I had "the spirit". From Joseph's statement we can see that the "spirit" is completely dependent upon our proximity to God, and not our possession of it as some sort of guarantee. The closer we are, the clearer our views, the farther we are from God then, the cloudier our views. I don't want to be deceived, so I need to be as close to God as possible. So, yes, I take the sacrament oft, as commanded by Jesus Christ in the most correct book on the earth, so that I may be closer to God, so that my perceptions and views may be more clear, so that I can see things as they really are as I work my way back into the Presence of Christ. 

As to Denver Snuffer, yes I read his writings. If you have ever read his writings, you know most of it is quoting scripture, primarily the Book if Mormon. I don't agree with everything he says, but I do know that his writing is filled with light and truth and I have come closer to God by reading his writings and doing as he suggests. But he is only quoting and pointing to Joseph Smith and the Book of Mormon, so if you want to criticize him you would also be criticizing Christ's words, Joseph's words as well as Nephi, James, Moroni, Alma and a host of other prophets. Is there a problem with me reading his writings?

Bishop: "no, no, thank you for being candid and forthright."

Me: "sure. How else would I be? I have nothing to hide. I am simply following Christ's words in the most correct book, and I expect you to allow me to worship according to the dictates of my own conscience, as article of faith 11 directs. You know, we in the church may hear that and say, 'yeah, worship according to the dictates of your own conscience, but do it outside the Mormon church.' To which I would say, do you know the history of that idea to allow others to worship as they will by Joseph our founding prophet is all about us as Mormons having different doctrinal views? In Kirtland they were going to excommunicate some man and Joseph said they shouldn't be doing that, "that sounded too much like the Methodists", and we should "leave the old man alone". Joseph saw a Mormon church which accepted different views among its members, even saying Mormonism had no creeds. So, I ask you to let me worship according to the dictates of my own conscience, and I will do the same for you. 

I mean, that's why I don't attend all my priesthood and Sunday school classes is because I don't believe I have the right to proselyte and get people all riled up at church. If someone asks me, I will tell them what I believe, but I don't want any trouble with the church and I don't believe everyone must believe as I do, and I don't go around pushing this on others, and in return, I ask to also be left alone to worship God privately and still remain a full member with all my rights. I'm worthy to enter the temple, and so I expect you to allow me to continue to attend. I sustain the prophet, I'm not causing trouble, so please let me be. 

I'm not trying to convince you of my way of thinking Bishop. But I am asking you to let me pursue God as I will and remain a Mormon. The  Mormon church is the only church I have ever belonged to and I do not see myself ever belonging to any other earthly church or institution. I know Joseph is a prophet of God. And I don't mean that I just "really really believe" kind of know, what I mean is, I KNOW Joseph is Gods prophet because I too have done as James directs and asked God, and I have had my own first vision experience revealed to me. I know God lives because I have seen Him. The Lord has spoken also to me and I now know for myself that Joseph is who he said he was and more. I speak with God and His angels and so should you. We all should. This is what Mormonism is, or at least it should be. 

Bishop: "I'd like to meet with you soon, would you stop partaking of the sacrament until we can meet together?"

Me: "bishop, out of respect to you I would normally try to do what you requested of me, but I am currently in the middle of a 40-day sacrament fast, partaking of the sacrament every day for 40 days. Like I said, I need Christ's Spirit to allow my views and perceptions to be clearer, and in obedience to the precepts of the Book of Mormon; the way to do that is by partaking oft as commanded. I would be willing to not facilitate partaking with others in groups until we meet if you like, but I cannot stop partaking personally in private right now or I would be breaking a covenant I have with God.  

Let me be clear: when it comes to determining how I judge what to believe or not believe, and what to do or not do, the scriptures, and specifically the book of Mormon is what I go by. So if it comes down to a person or God then I choose God and the scriptures over the precepts of men, just like the temple tells me to. 

Bishop: how far along are you in this fast? When would you be finished with it? 

Me: I am about in the middle, I have another 20 days or so. 

(The Bishop never responded to my offer to abstain from group partaking, so I have proceeded to continue to meet and partake, as he never said anything else about it, therefore, I offered but he never acknowledged or accepted my offer)

Bishop: so are there any members of our ward who currently or who have ever in the past met with you or partaken of the sacrament? 

Me: "I just couldn't say"

Bishop: well, like less than zero or between zero and a hundred?

Me:  "I just couldn't say. You see, that is a private matter between each individual and God. I just couldn't say. If you want to interject yourself between God and someone else then go ahead, but I won't do that, so I just can't say.  That is between God and them, and I guess you, if you decide to interject yourself between God and them. 

See, I take this idea of performing ordinances seriously. I don't believe anyone should just run out there and start doing ordinances. I discourage that. I prayed and fasted for months trying to know if I should bless and partake of the sacrament. The Lord kept encouraging me to proceed. I refused to do so until God told me He gave me authority and Power to perform the ordinance by His own voice out of Heaven to me. Once He did that, then I began to partake in private. This is a private matter between God and me. I am answering your questions because you have asked nice, but do not mistake my good manners as that I believe I must answer any of this. I'm answering because you asked nice and I feel ok doing so. So many people came over, especially at first, who did not have authority from God. That is one reason I have met with so many others. Everyone wants a valid ordinance, and I could provide that in the interim.  But anyone can get that from God themselves, so I simply helped people on their own path to getting their own witness from God, I can point to scripture, but they need to get it from God themselves. 

Bishop: well thank you again for your forthrightness and I'd like to meet with you soon. 

Me:  sure! Anytime. I would love to sit down with you.